I'm Back

So, I got back from my college visit yesterday. It was okay. Here's a picture of Isabella and I jumping on the bed of our hotel:


So we started out with my parents, Isabella and I taking a three(?) hour drive to Cocoa Beach, where we stayed with some friends of ours. It was a pretty nice place, but there wasn't much to do. We stayed there from Friday night to Sunday night, and then we drove five or six hours to Tallahassee to look at Florida State University (which is where we're going to college). The campus is really old and nice, it kind of reminds me of boarding school. I also got to see my friend Carla:

(red hair [no she does not always look like Raggedy Anne, this is a new development])

And then we drove five hours down to Orlando to look at the University of Central Florida, which was nice, but I'm not interested in attending. I think my parents want me to go there because it's closer to home (3 hours v.s. 9 hours) but whatever. Then we drove the three hours home.

While I liked seeing the campuses and all, the trip was kind of not fun for me. Mostly, it was Isabella. She was on her period the whole trip, and while she's not a cunty bitch, she just gets kind of antisocial. She was getting texts from James and Jon the whole time she was up here. I didn't really get any texts. It kind of made me feel a little out of sorts.

I had a conversation with Dzyan about it. Basically all of my friends this year, are Isabella and Jon's friends. And for the past while I've felt like Jon is sort of taking my place as a person. I mean it used to be that I was the smart, articulate, cultured one in my circle of friends. But Jon's smarter than me, and is about as articulate and cultured as I am, so now that I'm in his circle of friends I'm kind of lost. I don't even have the gay thing going for me (he's gotten progressively gayer the longer I've known him). He's even started dressing better. I know it's childish, but I sort of feel like he's taking my identity. Another thing, perhaps the most important thing is that I can feel Isabella drifting away from me and closer to him. I guess I get envious, because there are things he can do for her that I can't. He can be caring and sentimental and sweet and I just can't be those things for her. I'm really hoping the situation will work itself out somehow, but for now I'm just going to have to keep quiet. Since, it's definitely something that's all in my head. I don't want to start up drama for no reason.

Anyway, I've taken this Proust Questionnaire so that my readers can get to know me, and I figure if they want to take the time they can comment back with their own answers and then I could get to know them better.

That's all for now.



What is your idea of perfect happiness?
Lots of fame, money and clothes.

What is your greatest fear?
Death.
Or cockroaches/deep sea creatures.


Which historical figure do you most identify with?
Andy Warhol.


Which living person do you most admire?
Vivienne Westwood.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
Greed. My inability to feel major emotions.


What is the trait you most deplore in others?
Morals.

What is your greatest extravagance?
My personality. That, or clothes.

On what occasion do you lie?
I almost never say something false with the intention of making someone believe that it's true.

What do you most dislike about your appearance?
I'm not sure. I guess I'm just resigned to the fact that I'm not the most attractive person alive.

When and where were you happiest?
Probably Europe in 2008.

If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
Probably my physical appearance. Or I would make myself be able to say "I love you."

If you could change one thing about your family what would it be?
A few things.

What do you consider your greatest achievement?
When I make people laugh.

If you died and came back as a person or thing what do you think it would be?
Probably a socialite.

What is your most treasured possession?
Myself.

What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
Being poor, lonely, and anonymous.

Who are your heroes in real life?

Girls who burp out loud.


What is it that you most dislike?
Social conventions that make people uncomfortable.


How would you like to die?

Never ever.

What is your motto?
It doesn't matter what you do because you die anyway.

"Vacation"

So my parents have forced me to go look at colleges. I already know what college I'm going to, so I don't really see this trip as necessary, but my mom started saying something about "our last family trip together before I go off to college," so I just said whatever. At least I got to bring Isabella along.

Anyway, any ability to go online and update is limited. I do have some stuff to talk about when I get back. As Octavius has said, it's my blog to bitch away on, so bitch I shall ;D

Anyway, I guess I'll update later.

Mood Swings

Sorry I haven't updated in a few days. My internet went out, and I just got it back yesterday. Pretty much my weekend was the usual, I hung out with my friends, we mostly stayed in and played Rock Band.

Unfortunately, Jon's been getting on my nerves more and more. He's really moody, and it's just annoying have to work around his moods every weekend. I kind of think it's just me being me, but even he acknowledges that he's been "Queen of Mood Swings."

Isabella is constantly reminding me that Jon and I are similar, which I don't like. I mean, I know we share a lot of traits, but I'd like to think I'm a more positive, less moody person. Hopefully.

One of the things I like most about my blog is that none of my friends know about it, so I can talk freely without being pressured not to hurt anyone's feelings.

Whatever, anyway, tomorrow I get out of school early for a field trip. That art contest I submitted to last week is doing a showing of all the pieces so I might be able to see if I won anything. Here's hoping. A few of my friends submitted too, and I really hope that they won. I won something last year and it's really uplifting to have your work recognized and appreciated.

Well, I guess that's it for now. Perhaps I'll have something real to say tomorrow, instead of bitching.

Oh, P.S., the new Owen Pallett album came out last week. If you haven't heard it, look it up, it's really good I promise.

Also

Also, I figured I'd give a description of my friends, so that when I talk about them anyone reading this isn't totally lost. Okay, here goes:


Isabella (Wrinkles): I've known her since I was 11, so about seven years. We weren't really good friends until freshman year. She was a really big mess back then, and so I sort of told her that I was going to fix her, and now she's stylish and beautiful. And almost a real person. I call her Wrinkles just because I thought the name was cute. Anyway, she's really thin and she has long brown hair. She's Brazilian and she speaks Portuguese, Spanish and English. She says silly things a lot of the time and she's often the butt of every joke. I also have this really creepy ability to know exactly what she's thinking before she even thinks it. I guess you could say she's my best friend.

Carla: Carla's a really strong minded girl, who I became friends with my Freshman year. We often think and say the exact same things (we call each other brain twins, I know it's stupid. It's from a book, don't judge). Anyway, she's at college now, which I think is for the best because she and I were getting into a lot of fights over the summer. I think it's because we both try and push each other to be people we're not.

Kelsey: I also met her in my Freshman year. She's really ridiculous and dresses really strangely, but she's a lot of fun. Well, most of the time. She's got severe anxiety/stress issues and is bipolar so sometimes she's not that fun to be around.

Melisse: She's a really funny girl and she has a bushy head of blonde curls. She has a problem with saying things before she thinks about it, which usually lends itself to hilarious results.

Jon: Jon is Isabella's boyfriend. We play this game though where we tell people that I'm Jon's boyfriend, or that he, Isabella and I are all dating, (people still aren't sure if it's true or not). He also kisses me sometimes (not behind Isabella's back or anything, we're always polite enough to do it in front of her ;D). It's kind of weird, but I guess it's nice to at least have a guy pretend that he's into me.

Terrence: Terrence is really fun. He and I often quote ghetto black girls together. He's a really genuinely nice person, and is probably the antithesis of me (I'm heartless and evil). Everyone thinks that he's gay except for him. People also say that he has a crush on me, but he thinks he's straight. He's kind of the most flamboyant guy I've ever met though. Ever. I think he's just hiding his real feelings because he's a strict Baptist. (He was convinced that sexuality is a choice until I convinced him otherwise).

James: James is the most kind hearted person I've ever met in the whole world. He's really generous and giving. And he's rich. :)

Adam: The most awkward person ever.

That was a lot more than I planned on writing. But hopefully you guys will have an idea of who I'm talking about when I say these names now.

Why Me?

For whatever reason I don't seem to be able to comment on anyone's profile, not even my own. I was going to respond to the comments on my last post but whenever I post a comment it just doesn't show up. Is there a way to fix this problem that anyone knows of? Well, if not I just want to say thanks for the comments on my last post, they're really motivating.

So this week was the start of mid-terms. I actually like mid-terms week, because it means we get out of school at 11:40 instead of 2:40 and it also means that I don't have to go to school on Friday because I'm a boss and I exempted both of the finals that I had that day.

Unfortunately, today was a stressful day because my Art and Photo teachers sprung horrible news on me. So, today when I finished my Photography final I went up to my teacher and she told me that the portfolio I planned on submitting to an art competition wouldn't qualify. The problem was that the work I had was technically mixed media (which means I used a bunch of different things like ink, paint, cutouts, pencil, etc. to make my composition). However, the pieces were in a journal, and to submit them I would have to cut them out of the journal, or submit the whole journal, neither of which I wanted to do. So my teacher and I had planned on scanning them and then printing the scans. The problem with this is that when I scan them they no longer become mixed media and instead they become a print. I couldn't really cut out my compositions because they were back to back, which means that some of them would be covered up/lost if I did so. My art teacher suggested I make a mobile (have them hang from the ceiling and submit it as a 3-D sculpture), but I hated that idea. If I presented it as a mobile, it means that I would have to submit it as a single piece rather than a portfolio. In the competition only portfolio's can make an applicant eligible for scholarships, and I want a scholarship.

Because of this I had to go home and make the executive decision to cut out the compositions, and use the ones I could, even though it meant that I would lose some of my pieces. Then I had to come up with two new pieces. So I got home at 12:30 and worked like crazy to get two new pieces done before 4:00 when my photo teacher said I had to have them into her by. I got there at 4:00 but she was gone. Luckily, my art teacher was there, and she told me I could just bring them in tomorrow. Kill me. (Here's an example of one of the pieces I made, so you can kind of get an idea of what I'm talking about.)

In better news, the new Vampire Weekend album came out yesterday. It's really good, although it did take some time to get used to because it's a bit different from their last album. Another thing I really like about them is that in addition to being really good musically, they're really stylish.




Definite style influences. One of these days, I'll stop being lazy and I'll start taking pictures of my own outfits and this can be a real style blog. One of these days...

Fuck Homework

Okay, I should probably be studying for my math test tomorrow but I don't feel like it. :)

I said on Wednesday that I would blog later in the day, but that never happened. I guess it was easy to not feel obligated because I had no followers, but thanks to Dzyan (who I had a wonderful conversation with on AIM) I have three now, so now I'll have to start sticking to my word. I guess I'll just recap my week starting from where I left off.

Wednesday was a very fun day actually. I got to hang out with Tay and her mom, B (she's hilarious regardless of her age) who are two friends of mine that I don't get to see very often. So after school I was driving with Tay and she gets a call from B saying that her son, Aiden, got in trouble at school today. When Tay asked why, B said that "the teacher found Aiden with his pants down dancing around with his penis out." B then started calling her son 'my little meatspin'(link NSFW at all). Like I said, she's hilarious.

On Thursday I went to go see the movie Precious which was really fantastic. I went to go see it with my mom; she wanted to spend time together because my dad left for business I guess.

On Friday my mom let me sign out early from school which was good because I wasn't really in the mood for my Literature class. It's not that it's hard, it's just that I don't really feel like doing the work or taking the daily tests. I mean, we get a test every day and then the grades don't even count, so I'm not taking it seriously right now. I went home and I went to sleep(Exciting right?!).

Saturday I hung out with Isabella and Jon and some other friends (Adam, James, and Melisse). We met up at Panera bread and then went to Jon's house to play some rock band. We had a really good time, until we stopped playing rock band and decided to watch the movie Sideways for whatever reason. It's one of the worst movies I've ever seen. Ever.

Ever.

But at least rock band was fun. It hurts my throat though from all the 'singing' that I do.

Anyway, today was my Dad's birthday, so I didn't really live the house because I thought it would be a dick move to go hang out with friends and not him on his birthday. I kind of just sat in the living room with him while he watched sports. I ended up finishing a book I was reading and was able to start another one for my Lit class.

I also rediscovered an old editorial in GQ featuring Hunter Parrish, who is insanely cute:





So that was kind of inspiring, and maybe I'll be able to put together an outfit tomorrow without tearing apart my whole wardrobe like I did all of last week.

Anyway, that's all. Back to studying for math.

(And thank you again to Dzyan for the help.)

School Sucks

So I'm sitting in yearbook (it was an accident, don't judge) with nothing to do, so I figured I'd come on here. It's freezing, but I guess it's not as cold today as it was yesterday as the day before. Btw, freezing in Florida means 45 degrees.

I guess the good thing about the weather is that I can wear more layers and stuff, and finally wear some of my scarves and gloves. I just got out of Psychology. It's an AP class but it's still kind of retarded. Today the teacher had to spell out 'K-N-O-W' for us, just in case we forgot the difference between 'no' and 'know.' All of our homework in that class is dumb too. Not because of the actual work assigned, but just because she gives us the answers and I don't know, it's just silly.

Now Isabella's mad at me because I'm not paying attention to some story she's telling me. I guess I'll write again later today.

Back to School

Today was the end of winter break and the first day of school. It wasn't so horrible, it just kind of seemed to last forever. And ever.

Actually, it only seemed long during the first two periods, (Art and Government respectively). After that it kind of went by fast enough.

I went home and went to sleep. The routine starts again.