So we started out with my parents, Isabella and I taking a three(?) hour drive to Cocoa Beach, where we stayed with some friends of ours. It was a pretty nice place, but there wasn't much to do. We stayed there from Friday night to Sunday night, and then we drove five or six hours to Tallahassee to look at Florida State University (which is where we're going to college). The campus is really old and nice, it kind of reminds me of boarding school. I also got to see my friend Carla:
(red hair [no she does not always look like Raggedy Anne, this is a new development])
And then we drove five hours down to Orlando to look at the University of Central Florida, which was nice, but I'm not interested in attending. I think my parents want me to go there because it's closer to home (3 hours v.s. 9 hours) but whatever. Then we drove the three hours home.
While I liked seeing the campuses and all, the trip was kind of not fun for me. Mostly, it was Isabella. She was on her period the whole trip, and while she's not a cunty bitch, she just gets kind of antisocial. She was getting texts from James and Jon the whole time she was up here. I didn't really get any texts. It kind of made me feel a little out of sorts.
I had a conversation with Dzyan about it. Basically all of my friends this year, are Isabella and Jon's friends. And for the past while I've felt like Jon is sort of taking my place as a person. I mean it used to be that I was the smart, articulate, cultured one in my circle of friends. But Jon's smarter than me, and is about as articulate and cultured as I am, so now that I'm in his circle of friends I'm kind of lost. I don't even have the gay thing going for me (he's gotten progressively gayer the longer I've known him). He's even started dressing better. I know it's childish, but I sort of feel like he's taking my identity. Another thing, perhaps the most important thing is that I can feel Isabella drifting away from me and closer to him. I guess I get envious, because there are things he can do for her that I can't. He can be caring and sentimental and sweet and I just can't be those things for her. I'm really hoping the situation will work itself out somehow, but for now I'm just going to have to keep quiet. Since, it's definitely something that's all in my head. I don't want to start up drama for no reason.
Anyway, I've taken this Proust Questionnaire so that my readers can get to know me, and I figure if they want to take the time they can comment back with their own answers and then I could get to know them better.
That's all for now.
What is your idea of perfect happiness?
Lots of fame, money and clothes.
What is your greatest fear?
Death.
Or cockroaches/deep sea creatures.
Which historical figure do you most identify with?
Andy Warhol.
Which living person do you most admire?
Vivienne Westwood.
What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
Greed. My inability to feel major emotions.
What is the trait you most deplore in others?
Morals.
What is your greatest extravagance?
My personality. That, or clothes.
On what occasion do you lie?
I almost never say something false with the intention of making someone believe that it's true.
What do you most dislike about your appearance?
I'm not sure. I guess I'm just resigned to the fact that I'm not the most attractive person alive.
When and where were you happiest?
Probably Europe in 2008.
If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
Probably my physical appearance. Or I would make myself be able to say "I love you."
If you could change one thing about your family what would it be?
A few things.
What do you consider your greatest achievement?
When I make people laugh.
If you died and came back as a person or thing what do you think it would be?
Probably a socialite.
What is your most treasured possession?
Myself.
What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
Being poor, lonely, and anonymous.
Who are your heroes in real life?
Girls who burp out loud.
What is it that you most dislike?
Social conventions that make people uncomfortable.
How would you like to die?
Never ever.
What is your motto?
It doesn't matter what you do because you die anyway.
Hmmm interesting mind job you have going there. It may even be true, but don't let that stop you from being the best person you can be. In life people tend to go through friends pretty quickly, until they find the ones they keep forever. If you are losing your peer group, then don't be that concerned..., there is always tomorrow, and new people.
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